There came a time when I was tired of everything, tired of people around me, tired of the life I was living. Basically I wanted to get rid of everything. I used to cry because I couldn’t do anything for myself or to make my dreams true. I had given up on my life, and there came a turning point. I took few decisions, yes I’m glad I took them.
1. Deleted social media.
The first thing I did was deleted social media, I agree it does have its advantages but for me I had more of disadvantages. As time passed I realized my whole life is a public, I shared whatever I did in my Snapchat everyday, I shared my best pictures on Instagram. I also got influenced very easily, I wanted to do some stuff because someone else had done it, and I didn’t realize it in a long term, I kept on doing it without getting to know what I was doing to myself. Instagram and Snapchat are addictions, you share everything you do with someone who barely knows you. Not to mention you only share your good things and avoid showing your painful side to that world.
2. Focused on my career
I was always upset with the choice of course I’m studying. International tourism management. I felt like there’s no scope and there’s nothing I would want to do in this course. I chose this course because I wanted to work in aviation sector, but soon realized this course was making my capacity of learning limited. There were days when I cried over it, I used to cry which direction I’m going on. I used to cry because I couldn’t do anything about it. My marks had begun to drop as well. I had spoken to my dad during my first year itself but they didn’t support me for this and blamed me for not having a determination and focus. One day I decided to end up regretting over it and accepting it as I had no choice. I focused on what all the options I have in this sector and motivated myself for this. For now I’m back with interest in my course, getting to learn so much. In 6 months I’ll get graduated and hopefully will land up in a decent job.
3. Started Gym
Yes I’m healthy, and I was always told that I didn’t have a good figure or else I was always informed my gym didn’t show any results and that was because I couldn’t balance my workouts and diets, I would eat unhealthy after working out because of which my results were either slow or no results at all. Whoever called me fat it affected me so much, I sometimes didn’t eat anything at all or else I ate to much on purpose either way my mental health was fucking up. So one day I decided to take gym seriously not because I wanted to prove anyone anything rather I wanted to show myself, I wanted to prove myself that if I’ve a goal, i can achieve it. I love lifting, thought now I only lift 6kg’s dumbbells, I really wanna work harder.
4. Removed all the toxic people from my life
I spoke with many, and these many were either my acquaintances or my friends (virtually). Tbh I’ve had lots of breakups, and I’ve watched people walk away from my life as if i was just a person with no feelings or whatever you compare me with. There came a point when I texted all of my ex boyfriends and asked the reason of breakups, it haunted me for few days, in these few days I deleted all of the people because of whom I was blaming myself, yes you can say that I ran away from them but now I’m at a better position, nobody’s words affect me nor I let it affect. I’m good however I’m. If they need me in their life they should stop talking negative stuffs about me.
5. Let go of my past
My past have been bad. Some people know it and few doesn’t. I’m a different person now, few months back I hated when someone spoke about my past, yes I dated number of guys, yes My list of boyfriends is never ending, so what ? It doesn’t define me, it was my past, I did it back then, now I don’t right?. You need to understand that your past character doesn’t say about your present, accept your past and move on. Life is much more than that. If you don’t let go of your past it’s gonna haunt you forver. Do something before it’s too late.
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